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Cake day: June 4th, 2023

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  • I went to a psychiatrist and he asked me some questions like do you hear voices? and I think it was mistake that I said yes. I thought having thoughts is like hearing voices for example I remember things my father said to me in certain situations. also I said that I have depression and I don’t like to do anything at all. he also asked “do you think people are talking about you, or staring at you?” I said I don’t think people are talking about me but I often feel like people are staring at me and looking at me. he said I have schizophrenia. at first I didn’t believe it because schizophrenia is a very serious disorder and it affects people very badly however in my case I was mostly fine, it wasn’t affecting my life that badly however psychiatrist suggested that I should take ETC otherwise you will end up like those crazy people eventually, I was scared and decided to take ETC, I should have said no :(









  • No, I can’t swim.

    When I said “afraid” it doesn’t mean that I can’t touch or drink water. It just like when I try to bath I start thinking about how I can be drowned in water. so basically I am only afraid of water when it comes to bathing. also I can’t wash my face because that triggers the same thing :(


  • Thank you so much for those kind words. ❤️❤️❤️

    So the “delusion of reference” is I feel like everyone is looking at me (not in a good way but like judging kind of way). To explain this a bit more I want to share an observation made by my father. He knows that I have “delusion of reference”. I was standing in his shop beside him and I didn’t know he was observing me. After some time he told me that he noticed a thing, I was continuously checking if those customers were looking at me or not. He was right I was periodically looking at the customer because I thought they are looking at me.

    However since when I started taking medicines I am not feeling that way as much as I used to. I still sometimes feels that people are looking at me but it’s not that bad.

    If you want to know more about my situation I have wrote almost everything in @[email protected] community.

    Thank you for reading this 😊


  • Persecution for me is like everyone has malicious motive and they are only being nice to me because they want something from me. I sometimes doubt my father hates me because he accidentally turned off the power switch of my server.

    Now I know not everyone is against me they have better things to do with their lives but I still feel inside me that someone wants to do something to me.

    I don’t know if it even makes any sense to you but that’s how I feel.



















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