

This symptoms of disturbing intrusive thoughts, points to Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
Check out OCD, and see if the Obsession part of the disorder lines up with your personal experience. It is likely to ring true when you read it, which is a solid reason to talk to a doctor or get a psychiatry referral.
Signs and Symptoms, not Indicator of Character.
If you don’t get a formal diagnosis and get a formal treatment plan up and running, you’ll be fighting this on Hard Mode.
















Which is why I suggested getting a formal diagnosis and treatment plan, you wankel rotary engine.