Hello,
I have schizophrenia however you won’t even know it unless I tell you myself, I only have delusion of reference and delusion of persecution. I feel like people want to harm me or mocking me. I don’t hear any voices though which is the major symptom of schizophrenia. I am afraid of water and soap too.
AMA :)
How often do you “catch” a delusion, and how does it feel once you notice?
Like, do you find yourself saying something like: “hold on, that person probably doesn’t actually want to harm me… that’s one of those delusions isn’t it?”
It happens all the time when I go to university. I often catch a delusion like you said “that person doesn’t wanna harm me since it doesn’t benefit them” however It’s hard to catch that “people doesn’t mocking me and laughing at me” whenever I see a person laughing I think that they are laughing at me and it makes me uncomfortable. It’s very hard to “catch” this kind of things. also I think that people are judging me like saying “oh he is a terrible person because xyz” which is infuriating.
Could this be anxiety, or missing parent based? Some people without a parent have this bias that they aren’t worthy as a human and see persecution and mockery in normal interactions. And over anxious people often get focused on WhatIf scenarios. Just curious.
Did they do a brain scan, as part of the diagnosis?
Fortunately my parents are alive. This is the exact same thing my new psychiatrist is thinking. They are decreasing the dose of APs and increasing the dose of anti-depresent.
No they didn’t do a brain scan yet.
Some anxiety is attributed to an enlarged area of the brain that is responsible for being overly alert/onguard. I think there are theories this can develope from early trauma. Some places do a scan to see if they are dealing with brain physiology or psychology.