Found myself in a pretty terrible place mental health wise for a few years. Every day after work was 20-60mg edibles, a bowl or three, and vaping. I did this with some incredibly toxic people.
I’m back on track with my life now and only smoke occasionally. But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic. It’s not eating junk food and laughing at stupid movies any more. It’s being terrified that everyone hates me and that I’m wasting my life and stressing about climate change the increasingly fascist government. I literally cannot relax when I’m high any more.
Is this a thing that happens? How do I go back to a happy high?
That sounds really rough. I’ve been smoking, used to dab for a while, daily for like 15+ years and I haven’t felt that paranoid feeling since high school. I do struggle with munchies but my eyes never get red anymore so that’s a plus. I think you probably need some therapy (but I think everyone does). It could be related to anxiety - I definitely have issues with some of that. You also can’t force things. You’re emotions are trying to tell you something and you have to try and listen. In my experience, emotions are very tough to sort out when I’m high - still working on that
It’s worth keeping in mind most people online will usually not have similar experiences to a daily smoker/user. I’ve noticed most people in trees subs have tried weed once or twice, and have typically not smoked daily/regularly. That means their tolerance is typically never impacted. You can still totally take their advice but I’ve always felt it doesn’t apply as much to me or any daily stoner/heavy user I’ve ever known