Not pain, but if I do anything less than strictly sensible I often feel I have an obligation not to correct it, because I should learn not to do whatever the thing was in the future. Trouble is, I never remember the thing itself. All I teach myself is it’s not ok to try to do things better than I did last time. That’s unhelpful. I know why I do it but my psychologist terminated service because she didn’t feel she could help me anymore so I don’t know how I would stop.