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Cake day: August 5th, 2023

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  • I’m self employed. I enjoy my work. It’s very rewarding, but every time i get a little extra money sometime comes along and takes it.

    I have no retirement savings. My retirement plan is to kill myself when I’m too sick to work. I’ve made sure my life insurance is written so that it will pay out to my wife even if I off myself.

    I come from a long line of men who don’t die easy. I watched my grandfather refuse food or water after being diagnosed with stage 4 bone cancer and still live for two weeks. That was after ten years of enduring strike recovery. My dad coughed up a lung from congestive heart failure for over two years before finally wasting away, looking like a pregnant Holocaust survivor. Same for several other uncles and great-uncles. I figure I’ve got another 25 years before I’m a liability. I’m already physically miserable. Middle age sucks. Old age sucks even harder and I’m not even there yet.

    I’m gonna follow one of my great-uncles examples and go for a walk in the woods. I’ll make sure whatever SARs volunteer that draws the short straw isn’t too traumatized when they find me. Just another old man that chose his own time

    ETA: to be clear, i don’t wish to die (any more than normal lol). But I am pragmatic about the reality of old age and my likely path. Will I feel the same in 25-35 years? Maybe not. We’ll see what happens. Perhaps our fortunes will change for the better, perhaps we will be able to immigrate to a nation that has better social safety nets, perhaps we die in a meteor strike in 2039


  • I’ve only been to two therapists. Mostly because it’s so much goddamned work just to get an appointment, let alone talk to someone. So many unreturned calls and ignored emails. So many broken websites.

    The first therapist I tried I had a great initial visit, tried scheduling a follow-up and the front desk people were unresponsive, then got a message that my therapist was no longer with that office. Dunno if he died or moved but I can’t find the dude.

    Three years later I tried again at a different office, got told that in Japan ADHD doesn’t exist and that i needed to buy a light therapy panel to open my third eye.

    I’m tired boss







  • More like the Vimes Unified Theory of Adulthood

    Another gem from that theory:

    “That was always the dream, wasn’t it? ‘I wish I’d known then what I know now’? But when you got older you found out that you NOW wasn’t YOU then. You then was a twerp. You then was what you had to be to start out on the rocky road of becoming you now, and one of the rocky patches on that road was being a twerp”