Yeah, its been an interesting transformation for me over the last few months, for sure. Psilocybin stopped being a party drug for me a while ago, actually. The drug isn’t “showing me things” that I didn’t already know, TBH. What I it is allowing me to do is parse through the extremely complex mind-fuck that I have been building for myself over the last 40 years.

My depression is gone and my anxiety is fading. I stopped my SSRIs a few weeks ago and had the mildest withdrawal from them that I have ever had in my life. My sleeping habits need a fuck ton more work, but one problem at a time.

Similar to Stamets and his story about stuttering, I am learning that I have much more control over my body than I previously realized, mood included.

I don’t want to go so far as say it is a miracle drug, but it is absolutely rebuilding parts of my brain that I was trying to extinguish with hardcore alcoholism. There is something to this.

More controlled research please. If anyone needs a guinea pig for lab testing, sign me the fuck up! (I am trying to get in a study at UC Boulder this year so they can poke at me a bit.)