I mentioned that i had concerns about myself when i was about 12. It wasn’t dismissed, but it was clear that attempting to address it at that time would be too difficult. I keep it put away as much as i can, only mentioning the intrusive thoughts when i can play it as a joke - not sure if that feels better or worse. After 40 years, I’m finally beginning to recognize the tendency towards self sabotage but still struggle with not giving in to it.