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  • OldEggNewTricks@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    16·
    1 month ago

    One of the things I’ve been hoping for with HRT (apart from boobs and so on) is more emotional depth. I have a not entirely undeserved reputation as an emotional black hole. I was going to complain about not seeing any of that this week, until I realized that I’ve been crying over random things all weekend that would ordinarily have me annoyed and looking for a drink. It’s weird how much better I feel after, kind of like a cheat code.

    A trans woman I’ve been following on Youtube recently posted a rant about the trans community, and she seems to have internalized a lot of right-wing transphobic talking points. That saddens me, because I’ve only just started unpacking all of my internalized transphobia and misogyny (and I thought I was an ally!) and I realize it’s been causing me a lot of self-loathing.

    Oh, and dialing in my dose after switching to injections sucks. I mean, I can top up with gel if need be, but every time I see man stuff coming back feels like waking up from a really good dream and realizing it was just a fantasy all along. Androgen blockers are available, but kind of a last resort here. Guess I might want to seriously consider orchiectomy*?

    I want a hug :(

    * Autocorrect suggested “hysterectomy” instead, which – I mean – thanks for the affirmation, I guess?

    • ferrent22@midwest.socialEnglish
      4·
      1 month ago

      As an ally, I can’t offer much in words of wisdom, but I am always happy to provide a hug over the internet. So, from one internet stranger to another, I hear you, and I’m here for you.

      Also, I can confirm that crying can definitely feel like a cheat code sometimes. 😊

  • King_Bob_IV@startrek.websiteEnglish
    7·
    1 month ago

    This weekend I got to use my new name and pronouns with my community for the first time ever. I couldn’t believe how good it felt to hear my new name coming from the people I love. I have been having a really tough couple of months as I have been slowly processing my gender and the joy this weekend gave me made it all feel worth it.

    I am extremely lucky, I have so many amazing people around me. All of my people that I reintroduced myself to were excited and supportive. I know that I have a really long road ahead and that not everyone is going to be that great. But I got a taste of what I am doing this for and I think she’s going to be worth it.

  • PyroNeurosis@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    6·
    1 month ago

    Anxious. Have Harvest Festival/Thanksgibbon plans with the family (not notably stressworthy) in a different state. Travel plans for work/pet are mostly settled, but the stress remains.

  • ElfBean@fedia.io
    6·
    1 month ago

    I got a clinic referral yesterday! Waiting on a confirmation letter/email but the gp visit went so much better than I expected. I was automatically offered the clinic with the shortest waiting times and the doctor made sure to make a note of my preferred name and pronouns on my file. I was in and out in 10 minutes and had to contain a big dumb smile as I was leaving