I have been joking to a couple of friends today who were also redditors that I’ve been feeling withdrawals from reddit throughout the day. Like I knew I was addicted, I just never thought I was going to have to face the consequences of withdrawals!

But there’s also a major part of me that’s feeling a sense of loss. I had two reddit accounts that were 11+ years old. I used an app called Redact last night to totally expunge my comment and submission history, and I just was hit by so many emotions watching my old content turn to ashes.

Reddit is where I always spent my depression spirals, but it was also where I found hobbyist communities and group help support. I found sexual partners through reddit, and used to even moderate in my early days. It’s where I used to keep up with a TON of current events but also read from so many diverse perspectives with expertise on topics.

As much as I am tentatively excited for the culture and community we can build on kbin, I truly am feeling the inconsequential reality of all that karma and browsing. Reddit felt like it was going to be immortal, but even the mighty fall.

Anyone else bummed??

  • IncognitoErgoSum@kbin.social
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    1 year ago

    Honestly, I’m not feeling grief so much as I just have this muscle memory where I keep checking RIF on my phone and now it’s just a bunch of random crap because there’s barely any content left for people to upvote. I imagine this will resolve itself once RIF stops working.