I used to dream, just like you. I sat and watched Star Trek over and over again and I really, really, really believed in humanity.

Then it hit me. We were born from chaos. We happen to have some great and intelligent members. We’ve been lucky to have some of them and we’ve paid dearly for having others.

We were born from chaos though. It shaped everything we are.

We followed grifters into deserts to learn about their fake gods and gave those grifters our bodies and our resources and we continue to do just that, all around the world. People are still fighting and dying for grifters who have been dead for thousands of years, and the new ones use their names for their work.

That is what we are. We pride ourselves on history that has nothing to do with us. We are either animals who want to survive all for ourselves or animals who want our group to survive. We want the other groups to join us, sure. Some of us even feel sorry for them when they don’t. Some of us don’t and we load them into camps for mass extermination.

To me, it’s all just that chaos we were born from. Just trying, trying, and trying to survive.

Rebels crop up because the system might not be working. That’s why fed people don’t complain. Take nourishment away for just a little while and activate the rebel. Epigenetic changes and all that.

I’m the wrong person to talk to. I’m in a deep depression and I’m drunk haha.

Who knows? Maybe we’ll take control of the chaos one day and we’ll be amazing. I hope so.

I’m so sorry for typing this out. If it helps, I’m a total idiot and I’m dully conscious of it.