If you perish, life will never improve. Self fulfilling prophecy.

The brave thing to do is to try to change for the better. Your life is yours to make into whatever you want it to be.

Anyone with ideations of self harm, please, I beg you, on behalf of everyone who loves you, live. Find someone to talk to, work through, around, over, under, whatever, but get around it somehow. Find a way. You are valued.