It could be willful denial, but I’m reading it more as someone with a poor and incomplete understanding of emotional detachment, the times and reasons to use it, and the life shatteringly bad stuff that happens to your brain if you use it as a primary coping skill.
You will always have emotions. You should probably at least acknowledge them when making choices as they’re deep seated alarm bells in your body.
That’s where mind over matter comes into effect.
What you are describing is willful denial. Yes, I know you don’t (and are not able to) see it that way. That’s how it works.
It could be willful denial, but I’m reading it more as someone with a poor and incomplete understanding of emotional detachment, the times and reasons to use it, and the life shatteringly bad stuff that happens to your brain if you use it as a primary coping skill.