I was born male, identify as male, and am attracted to women only. If given the opportunity to be an actual real cis woman, I probably would take it. In games and such I always prefer to play as a female character, as a child in our made up games with my siblings I usually pretended to be a girl character and the thought of being a girl made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. I’ve even been dressed up in drag more than once in my adult life and enjoyed it. I’ve often wondered if this means I’m an egg… but I’ve come to the conclusion that even if I was trans, the process of actually transitioning and the social repercussions would make it not worth it to me. I don’t mind being a man. Some aspects of it do suck, but then again a lot of aspects of being a woman suck pretty hard too. I actually feel very secure in my masculinity and scoff at toxic masculinity traits, laughing at guys who are self conscious about apearing even a little bit effeminate or submissive.

But still, I often wonder what life would’ve been like if was born a girl. My name would’ve been Gloria. My mother told me that she was expecting a girl and that was the name she had picked out for me. Instead I was named by one of the nurses…

I just am who I am 🤷🏼‍♂️

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk I guess…

I can echo this. I’ve told my friends and even mentioned in support groups that if there was a pill I could take to make me “feel like a boy” and not have to transition to deal with my dypshoria, I’d take that pill every day with my blood pressure meds. That pill (and any treatment that claims to have that effect) doesn’t exist, so transitioning is my only option. I wish every day that I wasn’t trans, but at the same time I also am thankful that I get to actually try to fix this dysphoria with something other than a 9mm to the brain.

EDIT: To clarify also, the time for such a pill is long gone for me. I am a woman, even if they find a “cure” for dysphoria that isn’t transitioning and gender-affirming care.