Repression. I never hated being my birth gender, but there was 100% a whole other half of me that I tried to hold back out of fear. That half of me was the half that knew what I wanted to wear and what I wanted my voice to sound like, all that stuff.
The only thing I ever did for that half of me (until I was in my 20s) was grow my hair out, because that’s socially acceptable for men. I was envious of people like Jaden Smith for wearing skirts, and of the women around me, both for dressing how I couldn’t and for being able to dress like a boy and still be pretty.
Repression. I never hated being my birth gender, but there was 100% a whole other half of me that I tried to hold back out of fear. That half of me was the half that knew what I wanted to wear and what I wanted my voice to sound like, all that stuff.
The only thing I ever did for that half of me (until I was in my 20s) was grow my hair out, because that’s socially acceptable for men. I was envious of people like Jaden Smith for wearing skirts, and of the women around me, both for dressing how I couldn’t and for being able to dress like a boy and still be pretty.
Tbh I haven’t gotten over that fear to this day.