ChatGPT4 translation:
I am Gorobets Anton Igorevich. I worked as a missile designer at the Main System Design Bureau of the PVO “Almaz-Antey” concern of academician A.A. Raspletin. A few days ago, a missile that I helped to make flew to Kharkov, to the house where my grandmother lived on my mother’s side. She died. I could not live with this. What is happening now is horror and nightmare. I refuse to take part in this war, but I can’t bring back my grandmother. Please forgive me, I can’t do this anymore.
Correct, which is why he killed himself. He lost his grandmother and now rest rest of his family lost him and his grandmother.