I dont mean depression or anxiety (this feels different), I mean feeling like you never really recharge, like youve never gotten time off ever. Which I think is partly due to a tendency to put literally 100% into something until you feel fried, move on to the next thing rinse repeat. Even “down time” doesnt really feel like down time because I am stuck between either boredom, working on yet another thing or thinking about things in general.
Whenever I’ve gotten a fun hobby I just think about it all the time and it becomes so hard to focus on my job and even harder to force myself to do the same boring shit every day. Can’t wait to get home too finally do something fun and interesting with my life.