I dont mean depression or anxiety (this feels different), I mean feeling like you never really recharge, like youve never gotten time off ever. Which I think is partly due to a tendency to put literally 100% into something until you feel fried, move on to the next thing rinse repeat. Even “down time” doesnt really feel like down time because I am stuck between either boredom, working on yet another thing or thinking about things in general.
Yes, and at least in my case, it’s because I feel like I can either be passionate about my work at the risk of some entitled asshole swooping in and destroying everything I’ve worked so hard to build, or I can just put in the absolute minimum and try to be indifferent. Neither option is attractive or motivating.
And then on top of that, entitled assholes aren’t just destroying my work, they seem to be determined to destroy anything and everything that matters. And for what??? So yeah, I’m maybe a little burnt out.
I can relate so much. I’ve had both happen several times. I’m currently back to the plan of minimum effort but it’s hard.