Almost all my life I’ve absolutely despised children. Pretty much from the moment I stopped being a child I’ve hated being around children.
It doesn’t even matter what the child is doing. Whether they’re laughing and having fun or screaming and throwing a tantrum. The sound of a child being loud activates an almost primal rage that I can barely contain.
I’ve had to leave social gatherings/restaurants/grocery stores all because if I’d stayed I’d have made a complete ass of myself by screaming at a child just for existing.
It’s even worse with infants which makes me feel horrible because I know they can’t help it. I know the kids don’t know any better and it’s our job as adults to get them through childhood, but my blood boils when they get loud or demand attention.
Has anyone else dealt with something like this? Is there anything I can do to stop from getting so angry?
Not OP, but speaking for myself, I get a different reaction. Probably because they’re an adult who should know better. When a child is being unbearable near me, my urge is to get the fuck out of that situation, whereas with an adult (or even a teenager) doing the same, I want to end the situation myself.
That’s fair. The feelings are different but similar, the desire to act is still there and the desired act is different due to context and that’s all appropriate IMO.
Thanks for the reply. Personally, I don’t like people in general, so when I socialize I usually stick to private events with friends. Going out in public is a problem; like when I have to go to the grocery store or something. I’m not organized enough to use grocery delivery even though it’s available in my geographical area; so I need to go out every so often and people are the worst.
I don’t have the same hatred and rage about it, but I certainly understand that someone could be inspired to those emotions. I’m inspired to different emotions from different triggers, but the general emotional function is the same.
Have a wonderful day.