Matthew

Canadian 🇨🇦 • 245• 🏳️‍⚧️ & 🏳️‍🌈 • EN/FR I use Arch btw

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Cake day: July 31st, 2023

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  • Matthewtomemes@lemmy.worldWEAKNESS OF THE FLESH
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    7 months ago

    I really want to live in the alternate reality conservatives live in. How can you live your life and create problems and scenarios like they do? Boredom? Poor mental health? Insecurities??

    Like us trans people are just here, trying to exist and live our lives.



  • As in, how did I figure out I was a boy? Sure.

    I always felt like “one of the boys” from a very young age. I’d play games for “boys”, played hockey, took boxing classes etc., hung out exclusively with boys and hated girls.

    Around the age of 12, I went clothes shopping with my mom, and I asked for boys clothes. She refused and I cried myself to sleep that night. Many more times I asked for boys / men’s clothes and got denied, and every time I fell into a deep (diagnosed) depression.

    I had no idea why, nor what “being trans” was or meant. Over the years, I kept saying things like “if I was a boy, I would x” or “if I was a boy my name would be x”, to which my friends reacted with “you know cis people don’t say or think those things as often as you do right? Might wanna get that checked out”.

    It took until feb. 2023 for me to seek help, and when I did they were all unanimous: I am trans. I bought men’s clothes, stopped shaving and begun hormone therapy in May. I’ve never been this happy in my entire life.

    My boyfriend stuck around (he’s bi) and has been super supportive.




  • MatthewtoMemes@lemmy.mlEmail clients
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    8 months ago

    Back when I was on windows, I didn’t even bother with clients anymore. The new outlook has ads in it and barely works.

    I use Thunderbird now since they updated their interface and it’s very pretty and fast. Couldn’t recommend it enough.




  • “Your death it won’t happen to you, it happens to your family and your friends, I pretend.”

    From the song “I Always Wanna Die Sometimes” by the 1975.

    Got me out of a very dark place and made me realize how much it would hurt my friends and family if I went through with it.

    We all have suicidal thoughts at some point. It’s when you actively think about how and when you’ll do it that you need help.


  • No I fully understand that. I understand that their lives are very hard, Panam mentions often and during the ending that food is scarce etc.

    It’s their sense of family, camaraderie and respect that I feel V lacks and needs. Everyone in Night City is “me myself and I”, I feel, and it feels good to be a part of something different.


  • MatthewtoCyberpunk 2077@lemmy.worldPanam is just the best
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    8 months ago

    Spoilers of course : Just did this ending again yesterday on my new 2.0 save as Male V w/ Romanced Panam. Nomad life path and I had Judy leave night city as well and I feel it’s the best ending.

    It leaves it up to your interpretation whether V lives or not. I like to assume they did make it but even if they don’t, I feel they still lived their best 6+ months with the Nomads.