Hi - I don’t know if this will work for you but I joined a local volunteer firehall which helped get me out of the house 2 hours a week for practice and I met some new people, some w kids. Of course I discussed it w my wife who understood. It’s been a wise choice.
One day at a time, my man. One day at a time. I’m up and down w suicide, and your struggles are vastly different than mine but I just want to say I hear you. All I can hope for you is a different tomorrow.