Hello,

ok so first of all let me list the symptoms that I have.

• Paranoia - I always think that something could happen. for example I think I would die because of the boiling water I put one stove. somehow It could jump on me and I will die. this is just a simple example I have ton of example to give.
• Delusion - I don’t always feel this way but If someone don’t give me exact reason why do they doing something I would assume they are doing that to harm me. I am not that delusional that I would not believe if they explain me why they are doing certain things.
• Hallucination - This is the main symptoms of schizophrenia. I don’t have it. really! I could explain why my psychiatrist thinks I have auditory hallucination. I talk to myself a lot and keep replying to my thoughts not voices thoughts. sometimes it feels like those thoughts are coming from someone else like they are talking to me. and I know it’s inside my head. I doesn’t even feel like normal voice. I won’t try to find that person around me since I know that it’s not real, I know all the conversation going on inside my head are imaginary. the problem it creates is when I am talking to my family members and at the same time I am also talking inside my head that renders me unable to pay attention to my family member who is trying to talk with me.
• Delusion of reference - I kinda feel like everyone is watching me when I go to some public place. however it isn’t that bad that I couldn’t even go to public places. I do go to public places however It makes me uncomfortable since I keep thinking about scenarios in which something would go off or something bad would happen or I would do something that will draw everyone’s attention. again it’s not that bad since I can go to public places and do whatever business I have to do there.

maybe I should show this post my psychiatrist so he could better understand however he always say that you don’t have to explain the symptoms to me I already know you have schizophrenia and I always argue that I don’t have schizophrenia. I don’t know I am so confused :/

I have seen a lot of videos about schizophrenia and I don’t even have all the symptoms of it. maybe I have one or two symptoms but that’s it. I am cognitively fine and you might even call me clever on some occasion.