it’s very irritating. does anyone else experience this? it’s just looming for a week ahead of time, i’m thinking about it every day, it’s practically a pall upon my shoulders that i’m going fucking apple picking with family tomorrow
sick of it. i assume this is a manifestation of the schedule interruption thing?
This reminds me of something I saw where someone was talking about how their brain goes into “waiting” mode when they know they have some kind of obligation later in the day, and they can’t focus or enjoy themselves even if it is hours away. Both that and this post speak to me a lot.
This except the thing could be days or even weeks away. When I was younger I would simply avoid accepting any such future “obligations”. I always had to be be on the same routine. Actually I still like to be on the same routine, but heavily using my phone’s calendar to schedule things and forget them until they’re close worked wonders. It’s still a struggle sometimes but I’m in my 40 now and functioning.
I have this “waiting mode” too but it’s only for things happening on the same day. The more important the appointment the more hours before it starts. In this time it’s close to impossible to concentrate on anything not related to preparation of the event (even if it requires none) and absolutely impossible to get real rest.
edit: The best strategy I have found so far is scheduling important appointments as early in the day as possible.
Wow, yeah… 1-2 hours of free time before a commitment is often utterly wasted. Can’t shift my focus to anything else. I was nervous for hours leading up to a concert I went to recently. I’ve been to the venue so many times, but I was unfamiliar with the headliner and was on edge until I was seated waiting for it to start.
Yup, that sounds like “waiting mode” alright.