I will let go of all my normal home maintenance tasks, such as cleaning, laundry, taking out the trash, changing bed sheets, etc., until I have a deadline for work approaching. All of a sudden, I have all the energy in the world to focus on said tasks while I avoid the looming deadline that I must absolutely accomplish if I don’t want to get fired. Why can’t I just work on things without the pressure? 😩
It’s also tough to reconcile that I may thrive in high pressure situations, but they’re still exhausting and I don’t like them, and definitely not being dependent on them to do anything. Medication helped the minute to minute, but the week to week is still a total blur.