I’m around 9 months of feminizing HRT, and maintain the opinion that it is one of the best decisions I’ve made. I know that a lot of long term changes won’t kick in until the 2-3 year mark at least, and it can take 5 or more years before strength is comparable to a cis woman.

Yesterday I took some milestone pictures, and it was the first time I’ve seen my back since before starting hormones. Holy dysphoria Batman. Genuinely the most acute dysphoria I’ve experienced. I have had a day to cry, nap, and evaluate, and am back to trusting the process, but damn I want these lats to go away.

I powerlifted in my past life as a way to try and run away from the woman I wanted to become, but haven’t done any upper body strength training in over 3 years. I’d have great genes if I wasn’t trans ;-;

  • Ember JamesEnglish
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    3 days ago

    I don’t know if it will help you, but something I like to do is save pictures of cis Women with similar features as me to help remind me that their is not one way to look as or be a Woman. In your case I would recommend looking at Women body builders. Your shape looks almost exactly like theirs to me, and I don’t see a Mans back when I look at you. Actually, funny enough, we have a really similar shape and I thought I made an alt account for a second… lol

    But I know dysphoria is a bitch and a half, and you may not see it, but I hope you start to see beyond it soon. Just know there are people out their who see who you are even when you don’t!

    Wishing you the best on your journey and never forget that Women come in all shapes and sizes. :)