It really seems honesty and kindness get you nowhere.
I’ve spent hundreds of hours volunteering. I donated money to good causes when I had it. I spoke up for others.
But I have nothing for it. No one will wish me happy birthday this year. No one will ever do any of the things that I did for others for me.
While evil people succeed. Narcissists can charm others into playing along with their world, people who do their jobs poorly will keep them.
Hard work, honesty, really any of those “positive” values seem to get you nowhere in life.
Spite
I really don’t care about the universe any more. I just keep doing what I can, when I can, for as long as I can just to throw two middle fingers at eternity.
I do my best to help others, fight back on things when I can and donate and support others who are fighting.
And I’ll do that for as long as I live.
Spite would be fine if I had a fucking mattress and wasn’t in the position wher I might ha ve to sell myself to 80 years old again