I’m 47 always been straight male. Aplrox . years ago I noticed myself having bisexual/ gay fantasies . As time progressed they grew in intensity and frequency. To now, I’m ready to grab some stranger at random and ask if I can suck his cock, until I find one willing to let ne. My problem is that I don’t know how to meet the partner with will allow me to discover myself as a bisexual bottom who’s ready to be free to love both pussy and cock & I’m really into the slut thing, free use thing, and especially forced to do sexual things that I’m already wanting to do but also things I might not be willing to do. I know, that probably sounds sick to some or even most, but I’m being honest and hoping for honest response. Discretion is priority 2. Priority 2. Is sexual experience as bottom and receiving his loads inside me and down my throat. Priority 3 a mutual friendship with that person unless previously discussed otherwise, but would rather have the friendship relationship. What can I do to make sure this will happen? What’s the right place to look? Should I buy services for my 1st time? Thank you for reading